Here Him Calling

I hear Him calling from a distance,
Why I am putting up such a resistance?
Good friends urge me to run to Your arms,
But leaping into the unknown rasies to many alarms.
I want nothing more,
Then for you to bandage my sore.
My walls of insecurities wont crash into the sea
To many lies have made me trust only me
I am trying to chizzle at my self worth
I want Your Will before I leave this earth
But I can't get past my comfortable view
I can't risk myself on someone new
I pray You grant me a soft heart
But trusting You will be the hardest part
I cry, Save me