December Smiles

I’ll always remember,
That day in December
The day my smile went away

You’ll never see
What you did for me
The day my smile went away

I Write

I write because I feel pain,

I write so I won't go insane.

I write because no one asks what's going on

They all expect me to get over it and move along

If you have read what I write

Than you have read about my fight

I don't write for no reason,

Or that would be treason.

I write for a peace of mind

I write so me, I can find.

I write because I can't speak aloud

For showing pain, I couldn't be proud

I write so you can see,

What's going on inside me.

But these words will pass through deaf ears

Don't worry there will be no tears.

School Days

The strange events that occur,

Is leaving the cure?

Or should I stay,

Will there be a price I pay?

I made a life the past 3 years,

Was it worth my hidden tears.

I can't stand the reminder of things old,

Of losing something I can no longer hold.

I want to forget you and it all

Thats why I shouldn't be here this fall.

I want a life without you in it

The puzzle is beginning to fit,

Together like perfect picture
But I am just the light fixture

Blinding those around me

This wasn't suppose to be.

I am sorry to those who are close

Me leaving, you should all toast.

The tag along no longer around

No longer hearing my sound.

But I gotta be honest, I never felt like much

I was fill in when no one was at lunch

So I will be a whisper in the wind

I forgotten memory finally at its end.

No Title

I am going to use a phrase,

Yes, your eyebrows will raise.

"I hate you" is all I can say

I hope you think about it as you lay,

In your bed and regret it all,

I regret our first meeting in the fall.

"I hate you" in every single way

"I hate you" from June to May

I am getting out my rage

Let my monster from the cage

So its true, love is a choice and I choose

To hate you and my love for you to lose.

Monster

I stare deep into those eyes

Shifting myself through the lies

I see the past, so wasted

I remember how it tasted

Those eyes blink

My heart sinks

You walked away

What was I to say

Hate is in those eyes

No one sees the cries

Just the fake smile

That goes on for miles

I took another glance

My heart didn't dance

The stare of a monstrous kind

Realizing all along those eyes were mine

Silly Game

Calculate it in your head

Think about it in your bed,

Silly isn't it?

This game we play

The silence that fills our day.

I laugh at your mighty act

you love yourself, thats a fact,

But there's something you can't see

There's a day you will bleed

Alone you will sit and not feed

My desperation for love is deep

And for this I will reap

What I sow

Its my weight on my shoulders

Its getting heavier like a boulder

Bagging my feelings for my pride

I set my love on the side

To hard to deal with

So into the sea I sail

Attempting my next fail.

These Bones

This skin is so uncomfortable
So thick and itchy hot
I can't breathe in this confined space
I can't dream where I can't go
So maybe I'll shed it tonight
And give it to someone who's cold
Toss it aside
And walk around in my bones

But these bones are so awfully heavy
I can't seem to stand upright
I can't move with these pounds on my back
So I'll drop the load tonight
Recycle them for someone better fit
Toss them aside
And swim around in blood and thicker things

But oh! These thicker things are in the way
Bumping against my every breath
I can't be free with them upon me
I can't watch the sun with them in my sight
So maybe I can sell them
To a single mother who needs a bit
Toss these aside

And now I can't travel or dream
or swim or breathe
I cannot move nor speak
And yet
I've done all I ever wanted
I made other people happy
When I couldn't for myself..